Throw your mirror down fool!

I am a selfish person. Period. The end. I try not to be in any way, shape or form. but it just keeps happening like human nature. Not too mention that I am way too into myself! Once again, I try not to be as much but it is so hard sometimes with our generation that is all about me, me, me! One thing about me that I have known is that I am an attention whore. I just am, I love being the life of the party and having attention on me - I will admit it. but I just need to watch that I don't let that get out of control, which I never really have but I have a lot of self control when it comes to that. I dunno, I feel like my personality as a fun and energetic person gets in the way of me growing as a Christian. Have a fun and energetic personality is great and all but that is mostly for social settings. I really need to calm it down and direct that energy for the kingdom of Heaven, which I am in the process of doing right now.

Okay, let's talk about the devil in disguise - facebook! Ugh, how I hate thee. Another thing that you should know about me is that I am the biggest superficial freak in the world that cares about too much about what I look like and what clothes I am wearing. Once again, my personality gets in the way(not that I am blaming it on that) but if I had a less vibrant personality that was less creative then I wouldn't spend so much time thinking of cool ways to match my outfit. With all that said - I hate facebook. It should be called "All I really care about is my profile and no one elses." See, I have always wanted to be in front of the camera. Ever since I was litte. I have wanted to be a film actor since I can remember and I have wanted to be a model since I was in highschool. But growing up and seeing how everyone thinks they are a model now a days and how we are becoming so self-absorbed...I could care less!! Which really makes me sad because I love photography and what it stands for (capture a moment in time...). But it has just gotten out of control. I don't mind taking some pictures of my friends birthday party every now and then but having pictures up on facebook after ever weekend of hanging out becomes a little self-indulgent.

So yeah, all this stuff that I just naturally love to do (compile clothes for outfits, be in front of a camera, be the life of the party)....I just need to watch all that and make sure it doesn't get in the way of me growing as a believer. :/