Lose the tude dude

So, I just came back from an event at school with some of the Greek organizations on campus. When I was there I didn't have the best attitude (cause I thought the event was really lame) but I was just judging everyone and not being a Christlike example. Sometimes, I think that we all get caught up in our own little world and think that our views are the only correct ones. I need to make sure that I don't get too comfortable with my own little group of friends (or the same type of people) that I forget there are so many different types of people out there that dress different, listen to different music, and maybe have a different sense of humor. Usually I am really good at being interested in people other than my own little norm, but tonight I just failed at having a positive attitude toward them. Now, I am not saying that I need to go make friends with all of these multicultural people and then blow off some of my best friends. No, that is what I don't want to do. Right now I am working on strenghtening the relationships with my friends that I currently have while being warm and welcoming to everyone that I come across paths with (not just in my own litte "church" setting).

I just don't want to be someone with an attitude that gives you skank looks, not cool dude!

You're a social superficial fool

So I have noticed that I am becoming less superficial (which is a really good thing) and less into my social life which is something that I have blogged about before. One thing that I learned after years of being superficial and a very social person is that you are always going to be pushing the limit.

Hear me out:
Say you are really into the way you look and try to be more hot and attractive at this party then at the last one. You are just going to keep doing that an obsessing about your outer appearance and how people perceive you. It will be a never ending battle and you will never be satisfied. I am not saying to not care about how you look because I am the kind of person who wants to look better and better as I go on in life...but in a way that is like "Keith, you look good and very happy." Not like wow you look like you have been working out...new clothes?.....that is the superficial response that I don't want. Another thing with someone who has a huge social life. You are just going to keep living for the party. You are just going to keep pushing the limits of how many times you can get noticed by people, talked trash about, tagged in a facebook pic and how many "friends" you have. I put "friends" in quotes because I think our generation has lost the definition of that term somewhere.

Just some things to think about. I know that I used to/still am concerned about the way I look but I am trying not to be so superficial about things. One of the things about being superficial is that it is one of those things that isn't really a sin but holds you back so much. Most of the people that look put together with their clothes and hair are probably really superficial (not to judge but this is coming from someone who is always "put together").

Call me back

I recently am having some doubts about one of my friends. This person is just not being a good friend, not being there for me and not putting in there 50%. One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone doesn't call or text me back, especially when I am your friend. It just makes me feel like I am not that important in your life. and I understand the occasional mis-hap but when I start to notice that you are ignoring me is when I start losing trust/faith in you as a friend (my trust has been battered by friends a couple of times.) I try to be nice and make sure I am there for my friends all the time, I have learned not to be so nice because you won't always get it back.

Then of course I start to think "Have I done this to someone?" and the answer is yes. I have and I definitely need to apologize when the time is right. Another person that I have done this to is God...multiple times. I turn my back on God or just don't even give him the time of day. It is kind of like that movie Fireproof. I think that this was a good wake up call to relate this to my relationship with God. He is my best friend, my savior, the creator of the universe, everything! So, yeah I will be working on that.

As for my friend, I am not currently talking to this person, because I don't think this person wants to talk to me. And I am just going to wait it out and hopefully receive an apology (another pet peeve - when people don't own up to their mistakes and/or not apologize....grow some balls!). However, with all that said, I still have to show them Christ's love and pray for them.

Buckle down

Okay, so my first test of the semester is this wed! I keep saying how this semester is so easy(academically) but this will determine it for real!!

The only reason for this post is just to remind myself that tomorrow when I start to study for it - to buckle down and get to business! k thx

You got a mouth, shut it

So, most of my friends that know me, know that I have a way with words. I talk too much. I have learned how to tone it down over the years but I still slip up everyone once an a while. And usually it is me trying to be funny and in front of non-believers. There is this verse:

"If you keep your mouth shut, you will stay out of trouble."
Proverbs 21:23

The reason I titled this blog entry "You got a mouth, shut it" is because of my grandma(Nana). I get my quick wit and personality from a combination of family members, but mainly from her. She always told me to be aggressive, go for what I want and don't be a pushover(in a good way). She would always tell me: You got a mouth, use it. Like if I wanted to talk to someone about something, she would always encourage me and tell me that it doesn't hurt to ask and God gave you a mouth for a reason. Well that is a double edge sword!

But I try to watch myself. I just need to channel all that energy into soemthing positive for the Lord, like being warm, friendly and welcoming to the visitors at our church ministry.

Throw your mirror down fool!

I am a selfish person. Period. The end. I try not to be in any way, shape or form. but it just keeps happening like human nature. Not too mention that I am way too into myself! Once again, I try not to be as much but it is so hard sometimes with our generation that is all about me, me, me! One thing about me that I have known is that I am an attention whore. I just am, I love being the life of the party and having attention on me - I will admit it. but I just need to watch that I don't let that get out of control, which I never really have but I have a lot of self control when it comes to that. I dunno, I feel like my personality as a fun and energetic person gets in the way of me growing as a Christian. Have a fun and energetic personality is great and all but that is mostly for social settings. I really need to calm it down and direct that energy for the kingdom of Heaven, which I am in the process of doing right now.

Okay, let's talk about the devil in disguise - facebook! Ugh, how I hate thee. Another thing that you should know about me is that I am the biggest superficial freak in the world that cares about too much about what I look like and what clothes I am wearing. Once again, my personality gets in the way(not that I am blaming it on that) but if I had a less vibrant personality that was less creative then I wouldn't spend so much time thinking of cool ways to match my outfit. With all that said - I hate facebook. It should be called "All I really care about is my profile and no one elses." See, I have always wanted to be in front of the camera. Ever since I was litte. I have wanted to be a film actor since I can remember and I have wanted to be a model since I was in highschool. But growing up and seeing how everyone thinks they are a model now a days and how we are becoming so self-absorbed...I could care less!! Which really makes me sad because I love photography and what it stands for (capture a moment in time...). But it has just gotten out of control. I don't mind taking some pictures of my friends birthday party every now and then but having pictures up on facebook after ever weekend of hanging out becomes a little self-indulgent.

So yeah, all this stuff that I just naturally love to do (compile clothes for outfits, be in front of a camera, be the life of the party)....I just need to watch all that and make sure it doesn't get in the way of me growing as a believer. :/

Getting too comfortable?

So, it's been a while since I have posted a blog. Which isn't a good thing because when I post, it is usually a reflection of how my spiritual life is going (more blog posts = growing with the Holy Spirit). I dunno, kind of stinks but I do have good news!

I got to go on an amazing white water rafting trip with my church to Tennessee. Got to strengthen my friendship with some friends and meet some new people as well. It is so cool to go away for a weekend with some awesome friends and just relax and see God's beautiful creation. I have found that the people you surround yourself with are kind of the person that you become. I am okay with that because my friends are positive influences on me that want me to grow as a believer. Even this weekend I get to go away again!! to Orlando for Rock the Universe! I am so excited just to go have a blast. I hate concerts, theme parks and big crowds but I am going anyway! I am just excited to go and hang out with friends and create some memories.

With all that said, I need to make sure that I am not getting too "comfortable." Here I am with my "set" of friends at church. I am thankful that I have awesome strong christian friends to hang out with, however I don't want to neglect the fact that it is a ministry that welcomes in visitors non-stop. I need to make sure that when I walk into church that I don't just gravitate to my friends but that I look for the visitors who may be by themselves and make them feel welcome! I know that me and a lot of other people have felt like that at one time and it is nice when someone comes up to you and introduces themselves.

I really just need to work on not making my social life and idol that takes away from God's purpose and gifts that he has given me. I have done that before back home and I don't want to start that again. I have learned from my mistakes and I am ready not to make them again!! lol. =)