and...Graduation
good times :)
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
2010 was a whirlwind of experiences
I have not written in my blog for over a month. wow. I can't believe it. This entry will be about my christmas break and the rut I faced as well as looking back at 2010 with extremely high hopes for this year and the future.
Where to start...
Well, I turned 21 last year and I had some friends not make it to my birthday (intentionally) and it really drew a scar of trust towards friendship in general. It was the worst birthday I ever had, yeah my 21st. Luckily, I did have friends that were there on my birthday to support me and be there for me. One in particular was so nice and listened to me cry on my birthday over the phone about how I felt that I had drawn so far away from my friends. Well, a whole year later I am happy to say that I am going to try and re-do my 21st birthday and those friends are coming this time (we worked stuff out). It is amazing the people that come and go, the fights you have and the friendships that grow stronger all in one year's time.
I go on a mission trip every year and last year was the most spontaneous trip I ever did. I was growing closer to the Lord every day last spring. Out of no where, my church announces that they are going to Haiti over spring break....and I the only thing to ask myself was "Why not?" It was perfect, spring break, I had the money, time and energy. It was a rough living condition for the Haiti trip, but I can handle anything. Made some new friends (American and Haiti) and learned that the Haitian's are the nicest people out of all the countries I have gone to. I did question my motives for going, which was brought about by a unforgetful conversation. But in the end I learned that you don't have to feel "called" to go. I also met my brother in Christ, Jeff Dupont, 17, in Haiti. =)
Sadly, I only did one show in 2010. I choreographed "The Magical Land of Oz." As of right now, I have not performed on stage in over a year. shocking. usually I do 3 shows a year and at least 1. I didn't perform once. It was a weird phase with a combination of "college" and performing becoming an idol in my life. Well, with that time in my life that is now in the past and I have learned from it, I am happy to say that I am currently in the show "Bye Bye Birdie." This opportunity was actually brought on to me - so I know it is from God. I am going to bring Him glory through this. I am excited to be a witness to the cast.
Another big milestone this past year. I finally had a talk with my parents that has been long overdue. I have a huge struggle in my life and I reached out to my parents for help. They were more than supportive. This past year I grew a lot as a person and experienced. How much I have grown stronger in a year is absolutely amazing but I couldn't have done it without Christ. and believe me, it was hard.
Girls! girls, girls, girls. I met a beautiful girl right at the beginning of the year who I had an instant connection with. We grew a liking for one another but she had a long distance relationship going. We talked about it and agreed that there was a mutual connection but we needed to give it time with everything. Nothing ever happened though. I am happy to say that we are still friends and she is a great Christian encouragement.
Then...I met another girl who I didn't want to like but ended up being crazy about her. She also had a long distance relationship (don't ask me why, but I hope this never happens again - no long distance relationships.) Needless to say, we had so much fun together but she was a wildchild and got me into trouble - a lot. However, they were good times that I will always remember. That didn't end so well because there was a lot of blaming going on...we are currently not friends. However, I am relieved that it is "over" (even though it was never "on") because I feel like I am back to my old self that wants to accomplish things and stay out of trouble. lol.
This summer was amazing! I went on so many amazing trips like the GTD Slammed trip in Georgia. That trip had so many good memories with friends and inside jokes. Middle school camp was amazing. Me and my best friend got to be camp counselors for 9 middles schoolers and 2 of them accepted Christ!! and....I finally got to be a camp champ and be on the winning team!! - blue. I also worked out a lot this summer. Also, this summer....I got a Marketing job!! After volunteering with the Office of Student Programs, I went to apply for a position and picked up the wrong application but I learned that a marketing job was available (that was God.) I applied and got the job!! I was the Director of Marketing for USF Homecoming Superbull XIV. It was so exciting!! I had a $25,000 budget and got to come up with slogans, designs, how to market it to the students, I had my own title and email address! It was great. I had so much fun with that job. Homecoming was absolutely amazing and all the events leading up to it. I heart USF. lol.
On the subject of jobs, Homecoming lead to another job with CAB. Currently, I am the Internal Relations Director for CAB at USF. I absolutely love it and I am going to bring glory to God through this job.
Did I mention I moved into an apartment? and have the most awesome roommates?? =)
Fall semester: was amazing! It went by so fast. It was like every weekend I went away on some trip. I blew all my money and partied too much. lol. It was also a semester full of meeting "new people" so I got burnt out on that and really just wanted to hang out with my close friends. This is also the semester where I learned why kids in college party. You don't know until you experience it. Honestly, this fall semester I had the time of my life and made some great college memories that I will never forget.
Christmas break: this was a "dark" time of my year. The whole year I had been trying so hard to be a good christian and grow in Christ. It all boiled down to a big rut where I just wanted to be blah. I got sick of trying and fighting the fight. I didn't do my devotion for like a month. I got sick of some of my friends. I was just lazy and ....yeah.
With all that said I am happy to say that I feel like I am "back." It is a new year and I am excited for what God has in store. I just bought NYC tickets for a grad trip with me and my best friend. I am also doing a show right now!! yay, I get to perform again. And of course I graduate this may!! ahh so crazy. but I want to enjoy my last semester of college and create even more memories. I also want to bring glory to God through my work and school and my showsss.
I am just so excited for this semester, summer and fall and the whole sha-bang. I really feel like I can start new and be focused! (no girls or partying to distract me)
oh and did I mention that I found my leather jacket?! :)
Where to start...
Well, I turned 21 last year and I had some friends not make it to my birthday (intentionally) and it really drew a scar of trust towards friendship in general. It was the worst birthday I ever had, yeah my 21st. Luckily, I did have friends that were there on my birthday to support me and be there for me. One in particular was so nice and listened to me cry on my birthday over the phone about how I felt that I had drawn so far away from my friends. Well, a whole year later I am happy to say that I am going to try and re-do my 21st birthday and those friends are coming this time (we worked stuff out). It is amazing the people that come and go, the fights you have and the friendships that grow stronger all in one year's time.
I go on a mission trip every year and last year was the most spontaneous trip I ever did. I was growing closer to the Lord every day last spring. Out of no where, my church announces that they are going to Haiti over spring break....and I the only thing to ask myself was "Why not?" It was perfect, spring break, I had the money, time and energy. It was a rough living condition for the Haiti trip, but I can handle anything. Made some new friends (American and Haiti) and learned that the Haitian's are the nicest people out of all the countries I have gone to. I did question my motives for going, which was brought about by a unforgetful conversation. But in the end I learned that you don't have to feel "called" to go. I also met my brother in Christ, Jeff Dupont, 17, in Haiti. =)
Sadly, I only did one show in 2010. I choreographed "The Magical Land of Oz." As of right now, I have not performed on stage in over a year. shocking. usually I do 3 shows a year and at least 1. I didn't perform once. It was a weird phase with a combination of "college" and performing becoming an idol in my life. Well, with that time in my life that is now in the past and I have learned from it, I am happy to say that I am currently in the show "Bye Bye Birdie." This opportunity was actually brought on to me - so I know it is from God. I am going to bring Him glory through this. I am excited to be a witness to the cast.
Another big milestone this past year. I finally had a talk with my parents that has been long overdue. I have a huge struggle in my life and I reached out to my parents for help. They were more than supportive. This past year I grew a lot as a person and experienced. How much I have grown stronger in a year is absolutely amazing but I couldn't have done it without Christ. and believe me, it was hard.
Girls! girls, girls, girls. I met a beautiful girl right at the beginning of the year who I had an instant connection with. We grew a liking for one another but she had a long distance relationship going. We talked about it and agreed that there was a mutual connection but we needed to give it time with everything. Nothing ever happened though. I am happy to say that we are still friends and she is a great Christian encouragement.
Then...I met another girl who I didn't want to like but ended up being crazy about her. She also had a long distance relationship (don't ask me why, but I hope this never happens again - no long distance relationships.) Needless to say, we had so much fun together but she was a wildchild and got me into trouble - a lot. However, they were good times that I will always remember. That didn't end so well because there was a lot of blaming going on...we are currently not friends. However, I am relieved that it is "over" (even though it was never "on") because I feel like I am back to my old self that wants to accomplish things and stay out of trouble. lol.
This summer was amazing! I went on so many amazing trips like the GTD Slammed trip in Georgia. That trip had so many good memories with friends and inside jokes. Middle school camp was amazing. Me and my best friend got to be camp counselors for 9 middles schoolers and 2 of them accepted Christ!! and....I finally got to be a camp champ and be on the winning team!! - blue. I also worked out a lot this summer. Also, this summer....I got a Marketing job!! After volunteering with the Office of Student Programs, I went to apply for a position and picked up the wrong application but I learned that a marketing job was available (that was God.) I applied and got the job!! I was the Director of Marketing for USF Homecoming Superbull XIV. It was so exciting!! I had a $25,000 budget and got to come up with slogans, designs, how to market it to the students, I had my own title and email address! It was great. I had so much fun with that job. Homecoming was absolutely amazing and all the events leading up to it. I heart USF. lol.
On the subject of jobs, Homecoming lead to another job with CAB. Currently, I am the Internal Relations Director for CAB at USF. I absolutely love it and I am going to bring glory to God through this job.
Did I mention I moved into an apartment? and have the most awesome roommates?? =)
Fall semester: was amazing! It went by so fast. It was like every weekend I went away on some trip. I blew all my money and partied too much. lol. It was also a semester full of meeting "new people" so I got burnt out on that and really just wanted to hang out with my close friends. This is also the semester where I learned why kids in college party. You don't know until you experience it. Honestly, this fall semester I had the time of my life and made some great college memories that I will never forget.
Christmas break: this was a "dark" time of my year. The whole year I had been trying so hard to be a good christian and grow in Christ. It all boiled down to a big rut where I just wanted to be blah. I got sick of trying and fighting the fight. I didn't do my devotion for like a month. I got sick of some of my friends. I was just lazy and ....yeah.
With all that said I am happy to say that I feel like I am "back." It is a new year and I am excited for what God has in store. I just bought NYC tickets for a grad trip with me and my best friend. I am also doing a show right now!! yay, I get to perform again. And of course I graduate this may!! ahh so crazy. but I want to enjoy my last semester of college and create even more memories. I also want to bring glory to God through my work and school and my showsss.
I am just so excited for this semester, summer and fall and the whole sha-bang. I really feel like I can start new and be focused! (no girls or partying to distract me)
oh and did I mention that I found my leather jacket?! :)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Thank you Jesus
As I am updating my blog background and song I start to hear yelling and arguing going on outside of my neighborhood. It was kind of scary because it sounded like a bunch of guys about to get in a fight and maybe even start shooting (I don't live in a bad neighborhood so this is odd). So I turn the TV down and start to listen, then I go to look for my dad who cannot be found in the house ( I thought he was taking a dump). I find my dad and my brother next to the window listening to the whole thing in complete silence. Haha, so funny to see. But then I start listening and start thinking how blessed I am in life to have a family that loves me and doesn't have hate or anger in their lives. I could have been born into an under priveleged family that is full of hate and anger but God gave me a loving family that encourages opportunities. I also started thinking how one thing leads to another. Even though you may not be a drug addict whose life is going downhill, it could start to by just one sin. God has saved us from all that and given us hope. When you start to want all of the shiny things of this world think of all the crap that comes with it.
I also praise God for my dad not being like that as much anymore. My dad used to get beaten when he was a kid and I know that he has a lot of emotional damage from that, so he loses his anger very quickly. I got verbally abused by my dad when I was younger. I know that "verbally abused" is me trying to be technical about what happened, but that is it. It never got to the point of physical abuse (close but never happened). My dad has gotten a lot better (thanks to God) and I am really proud of the progress he has made.
I also praise God for my dad not being like that as much anymore. My dad used to get beaten when he was a kid and I know that he has a lot of emotional damage from that, so he loses his anger very quickly. I got verbally abused by my dad when I was younger. I know that "verbally abused" is me trying to be technical about what happened, but that is it. It never got to the point of physical abuse (close but never happened). My dad has gotten a lot better (thanks to God) and I am really proud of the progress he has made.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I is nervous
This week is Thanksgiving break and....I am home for about 4-5 days. I am nervous that I am going to fall into my lazy comfort zone and not "live" for Christ everyday like I would at school. I really pray that I can stay consistent in the word and not fall to any temptation while I am home. (this will also be a preview/practice for Christmas break).
Lord, give me strength and let my eyes stay focused on you and all you have done for me.
Lord, give me strength and let my eyes stay focused on you and all you have done for me.
Monday, November 22, 2010
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